September 29, 2006

I Do Regret

I am listening to Relient K, because somehow i like them. During this time of head banging and mouthing the words like i was in a music video, i was reminded of a horrible time in my life. a time where i was attending one of their concerts in the U.S.. i guess i should explain something about myself, before you get confused. there are times when i want to have dramatic attention. i'm like the girls who get drunk at the bar and then they are laughing and loud, i'm just sober. i think i am failing in explaining myself. anyways, i dont know why i did this. i dont think my parents let me out enough when i was a child. i yelled as loud as i could, "i love matt theisen." (the lead singer in the band)this was pretty big concert. the embarassment didnt hit me until weeks later. i guess the reason i am exposing myself like this is, because i feel like it's freeing to laugh with friends about my stupidity. my immaturity. this has also reminded me to remember, who i am before i speak. to remember who i am in Christ. it is typical for teenagers to do these kinds of things, but it was just a reminder of change. oh, i am positive i will have tons more embarassing stories. i just hope that my pride will never get in the way of me laughing at myself.